Maximise this day

'This is the day the Lord has made...' Psalm 118:24 NKJV

God determines the number of your days, but you determine how they are spent. The Psalmist said, 'This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.' Yesterday is a cancelled cheque, tomorrow is a promissory note, today is all you've got.

And you can begin your life over today, if you live by these words: 'Today I will delete from my diary two days - yesterday and tomorrow. Yesterday was for learning; tomorrow will be a consequence of what I do today. Today I will face life with the conviction that this day will never return, that it may be the last opportunity I'll have to contribute because there's no guarantee I'll see tomorrow. Today I will be courageous enough not to let opportunity pass me by; my only alternative will be to succeed. Today I will invest my most valuable resource, my time, into my most important possession, the life God has given me. I'll spend each minute purposefully, making today a unique opportunity. I'll tackle each obstacle knowing that with God's help I can overcome it. Today I will resist doubt and pessimism and warm my world with a smile. I'll maintain a strong faith, expect nothing but the best, take time to be happy, see every task as an opportunity to honour the Lord, and endeavour to leave His footprints on the hearts of those I meet.'

John Boykin wrote, 'Time is your life - nothing more, nothing less. The way you spend your hours and your days, is the way you spend your life.' So pray, 'Lord, help me to maximise this day.'

I don't think it is possible for me to be any happier than i am this morning.

I have the day off today. I have an assignment that is due on Monday, and an exam on Wednesday. I survived the fish bowl again yesterday - and it is actually becoming easier. One of my lecturers said something recently that makes so much sense. She said we are only learning when we are uncomfortable. If we are comfortable with what we are doing - then we aren't learning. I was thinking back to my first days at Uni and how much i dreaded having to speak in class. I thought back to my first class presentation that i had to do for Sociology and how i was so nervous that i had to run off to the bathroom ten times before doing it. I thought back to how the only marks i lost for my Motivational Interviewing exam was for my very obvious nerves. Yesterday i volunteered to go in to the fish bowl first - to get it over with. Last week i wanted to do a runner out of the class when the fish bowl was explained to me.

I can see my boundaries being stretched every week. My studies are actually like my very own counselling. I am slowly losing the anxiety that i sometimes felt ever since i left that hideous life behind me - when outside of my comfort zone, or when i am forced to face problems or change.

I am growing in all sorts of awesome ways - through my studies - and that is making me really happy.

I received another lame legal brain letter in the mail yesterday. It was a minute thing from Judge Harvey. I guess those people had tried to do something else without notice - a rehearing, or appeal - or something. I couldn't work it out and from the letter i received i don't think even Judge Harvey could work it out. T and i had a good laugh at it and my first instinct was to blog about it for the simple reason that it is so clear that they have absolutely no idea what they are doing.

So i blogged it - and laughed at them.

I then sat back and thought to myself - that is exactly what they want. Over the past 2 months i have mostly ignored the nastiness that has been left on my blog on a daily basis. Some comments were not even attempting to hide the commenter's identity - advising me that she hopes someone comes to my home and kills me. When that got ignored - she graduated to sending text messages to my phone. I ignored those as well. Then she phones me. I ignore that as well. I have ignored her constant attempts at intimidating me by letting me know that she thinks she knows where i am studying. I also ignored her when i spotted her near where i am studying and hoped that despite her working at the other end of the city - that it was just a coincidence that she was near where she had made it so clear that she knew i would be.

Until now - i had not written anything about the harassment that i am still having to put up with. Despite the fact that it worries me that i have no idea how she found out where i am studying (i have never stated where i am doing my studies - not even on my Facebook page so is she checking my mail or something?) or how she got my phone number (i have changed it since i knew her), i have just ignored her and the sock puppets.

Ignoring was feeling good. So i removed the post that i wrote yesterday - laughing at their latest legal flop and my opinion that Madeleine Flannagan needs to be supervised because she appears to have no idea regarding anything to do with the law.

Right about now - i am struggling to see how she could still be trying to do anything to me via the courts - when i have continued to be on the receiving end of Debbie Brown's harassment. Unlike prior to the absolutely dishonest and vexatious legal proceedings that were brought against me - i have not just deleted and ignored her. Those proceedings made me realise just how vindictive, dishonest, and vengeful she is and that i needed to document everything.

So i have - and will continue to do so.

Just like with my studies - this experience has taught me a lot of things. It has made me a better person. Learning how to ignore them and their sock puppets - and not react - is a challenge that i face every single day but it feels good. Yesterday - like with my studies and my fear of public speaking - i may occasionally still feel the need to run to the bathroom before i face it - but every time i do face it - i end up a stronger and better person.

I don't think life could get much better right now - short of winning lotto!